Masked: The Puzzle of Who We Are

      I know that many people wear masks because they believe the science that they help. And I totally respect that. Personally though I believe the science that says they are just a placebo to make people feel a false sense of security. They do absolutely nothing. 

     I believe the science that actually states it is unhealthy to wear a mask. I believe our mouths were not meant to be covered for hours at a time. It is just not healthy. 

     I have found the only thing masks do for me is make me feel sad, depressed and short of breath. When I wear one for any length of time my nose gets plugged up and my lungs hurt. Once I am unmasked a while I feel normal again.  

     It depresses me to look around and see only masks. I feel like people have lost their identity and I have lost mine in them. You can't see anyone smile anymore which just makes me sad...so I wrote a poem that pretty much sums up how I feel. I mean no offence to anyone, I respect other people's feelings and thoughts. These are just mine and I hope that others respect my feelings and thoughts.  

     I created a video to go with my poem. 

     Masked: The Puzzle of Who We Are

Arsenic Kitchen - Music Video Avarice Angels

     After a year in the making Arsenic Kitchen has released their official music video Avarice Angels. It is an amazing  piece of art.  Their music can be streamed on all platforms.  Check them out.

     I will let the music video speak for itself. 

    Picture property of Arsenic Kitchen.

 Follow this link  Avarice Angels Music Video

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Living in Fear and Fearing to Live is Not the Answer

      People have been told to mask up, to avoid gatherings, to distance and to pretty much stay home since March 2020. I believe that it is harmful to just say home all of the time and destroy your immune system by being well, germophobic. 

    I do not want to go into why I believe all of this has been pointless and harmful. I just want to state that I have a family member who has feared the virus from day one. He stayed home, had people who happened to visit his home get temperature checks before entering. He took all precautions he was told to take to avoid getting sick.

    He has not gone into the store since told to isolate. He has his food either delivered or picks it up outside the stores. 

    He faithfully wears his mask wherever he happens to go which is pretty much just outside or to pick up food, curbside.

    He sanitizes his hands regularly to the point of obsession.

     He sanitizes his home to the point of obsession. 

    He is fearful of Covid...to the point of obsession. 

    He is the perfect example of what the 2020 health gurus want people to be, masked, isolated, and pretty much germophobic. 

    Oh and he got his flu shot too...

    Well guess what! He got the flu, a bad case of the flu. Granted it was not Covid but the flu virus spreads the same way as Covid,  through droplets. So shouldn't the mask have protected him? It might have if masks worked.

    The flu is just as deadly to the elderly as Covid.

    What this tells me, what I already knew, is that all of the measures the government is having people take are pointless. If you are going to get sick, you are going to get sick! 

    So they need to unmask us, they need to stop spreading such fear and let people live. This man has not lived for months due to fear and yet got sick anyhow. 

     Yes I am angry, I am angry that the politicians and mainstream media are using fear tactics resulting in peoples submission to their demands. Many people are living in fear, so scared of illness that they are not living. 

    Don't get me wrong, I do not fault those who are scared and wear masks, and follow what  the politicians are telling them to do. I am just saying that at the end of the day if you are going to get sick, you are going to get sick and none of it really makes much difference. If it makes people feel better by all means, do it however there are actual cases that show it is redundant.

    I hope that people wake up soon and realize that none of this is working! People still get sick!  Almost 8 months later, people still get Covid and now we have the flu to contend with.....Just wash your hands, eat well, stay home of you are sick and stay away from sick people. At the end of the day though even that might not be enough. You might get sick. But living in fear or rather fearing to live is not the answer. 

#unmask

#end lockdowns

#Letuslive

LUSH Discriminates, Bosa Irritates - Two Places I Will Not Give My Business Anymore

      I love the products they sell at LUSH and used to go there before the politicians locked down the country and close small businesses. I was excited when they opened again. Couldn't wait to purchase the products I love.  I love Bosa donuts, they are one of my guilty pleasures....I refer both of these places to my friends and family every chance I get. That ended yesterday. I will no longer shop at LUSH or Bosa Donuts. 

     I am first of all a believer of the science that says masks are simply just a placebo and I also believe the science that says it is harmful to wear one for hours and that they destroy our immune systems. But that is not the issue here....my issue is related to masks though.

     When the mandate in my area was ordered I knew that I had to wear one to work, so I tried to wear one in the store, I almost passed out after 20 minutes of masking. I had to hold on to the cart taking the thing off so I could breathe. I discussed this with my doctor and he said that I can wear a shield. He wrote the medical paper stating that I can wear a shield instead of a mask. He also told me that I did not have to tell anyone what my medical issue is, and I don't have to show my medical proof. That is a legal violation of my rights. My work did not ask....I actually had no issues until November 7, 2020. 

     I hate wearing the shield, it is still difficult and after wearing it all day I find my sinuses hurt but, I can at least do it. I wear it into businesses not because I want to or agree with masking but so that they can remain open. No one has denied me the right to shop because of my shield until yesterday. 

    The first place I went to was an antique store. I do not remember the name of the store so did not mention them but will not shop with them again. After I had been in the store about 20 minutes an employee came up to me holding a mask and told me I needed to wear one inside the store. I told her I had a medical reason I could not wear one. She said that did not matter, I had to wear one to shop there. I said "Even with a medical reason?"  She told me yes. So I put on her little mask because I had a couple of things I wanted to purchase and they were from vendors not the store. I held the mask away from my face so I could breathe. I paid, and left never to return to that store.

    The second place was LUSH in the mall at Chandler Fashion in Chandler, Arizona. I waited outside their door to go inside. The employee came up and told me to enter their store I needed to put on a mask. She said they had some I could buy. I told her I had a medial reason I had on a shield and can't wear a mask. She said it was company policy. I mentioned it was a medical reason again but she said I could not shop there. So I was discriminated against because I have a medical reason to cover my face with a shield instead of cloth.  This is a company choice because no other store or business has required this. Just the two places I mentioned.  I love LUSH products but will not purchase them. I will not go online to purchase them. They lost a customer in me because they discriminate against people. 

     Now on to Bosa, they did not discriminate but they ticked me off. I will no longer purchase from them. I have been there several times to purchase donuts either for myself or other people. They are my go to donut shop. There was never a problem until last night.  I was in my car at the drive up window. They said I needed to put a mask on inside my car to buy donuts from them. Seriously! I was lower than her, she had a plastic flapping shield and I was far away. I did not plan to spit on her and I was in my car! There is no way I will wear a mask or my shield in my car. So that said, I will no longer go to Bosa.

     I respect the right of people to wear a mask if they are scared, or believe they help.  I wear my annoying shield places to respect that right...I hate it and believe it is pointless but I know other people believe the scientists who say it is the thing to do. I respect their right...but they need to respect mine too...regardless I wear my shield and have a medical reason for that so no business has the right to refuse service....well I guess they do but I have the right to report them to the ADA if I want to and to never shop there again....oh and to write this blog... I will also never wear a mask in my own car.....I have that right still and again also have the right to no longer do business with places that refuse to serve me if I do not mask in my car....

   So farewell LUSH for discrimination and Bosa for just ticking me off.

   PS the photo in this blog is not the shield I wear. It was my Halloween costume shield.

#unmask#discrimination 

Creating a World Where Monk is Not the Only Defective Person: Corona Cleaning and Covering Conditioning Citizens and Children to be Germaphobes

     

     Today as I stopped at Kohl's to return some items I got to thinking about how our society has become one where Monk would not stand out. For those who do not know who Monk is, he is the germaphobe defective detective played by Tony Shaloub. He is a fictional character but sadly there are many out there just like him or worse and society is becoming him and also putting this on the children creating more people like Monk.

     The man who waited on me in Kohl's was standing behind a splash guard. He also had on gloves, not just your surgical gloves but these thick dish washing gloves. He had on his mask of course because government mandates those...what really struck me was when I went to hand him my items he took out a sack, opened it for me to place my items in. Then he used a tool to close the bags. All of this while he had gloves on. I thought to myself how ridiculous it was, but more how sad our this is the norm and how ridiculous society has become.

     Who would have ever imagined the world would become a world where Monk is not the defective detective anymore. If he was real he would not even stand out as a germaphobic defective detective since the world is him..... "Wipe wipe" turned into squirt squirt.. and clean clean.. When people touch things they don't reach for a wipe like Monk, but they do reach for a squirt. It is all so sad. 

     Monk was not happy being a germaphobe, he hated it. He had a very sad life, felt tortured by his phobias which were not just of germs. He was conditioned since childhood. He was even afraid to hug. 

     I wonder how many have ever heard of  Howard Hughes?  He was real and he had a very sad life, he was successful but his germaphobia ended up destroying him. He would also fit into today's society of people who are so deathly afraid of germs. Howard Hughes was so afraid of germs that at the end of his life he laid naked in a hotel bed, was so afraid of germs that he burned his clothes if anyone around him became ill.

Research showed that Howard's germaphobia was linked to his childhood. His mother was terrified that he would get Polio (he was a child during the outbreak) she worried about his exposure to germs and protected him from them as much as possible. She was cautious of what he ate, checked him daily for diseases and made him sleep in her bedroom most nights. Isn't this what society is doing to the young people?  

     What scares me most of all is what all of this conditioning is doing to the children. Society is training them to be germaphobic and I bet anyone who suffers from it would say it is not a fun way to live. I watch them as they are afraid of sharing items, they are afraid of being unmasked, they are afraid to touch each other and sanitize any time they touch something new. They are scared to death of germs. They watch the adults around them live in fear of germs. This has to have an impact on them. I wonder what kind of young adults will come out of this.. hmm check out Howard Hughes.. watch Monk, even though it is fiction there are people that are so afraid of germs they fail to live. It is debilitating for them. They do not like it. Yet here in 2020 society is teaching its youth how to be germaphobic. 

     I also wonder maybe if this is a part of some kind of bigger plan. Create a society of people afraid of germs, people who eventually become afraid to go outside, who are afraid of everything. It might sound far out but who would have ever in a million years  thought we would be where we are now. So many are scared of stores, people, germs of any kind. They do cower in fear and their fear is real. But is that fear more harmful than what they actually fear?  This fear  is going to harm the children and they deserve better from the adults in charge of their world. 

  I fear that the repercussions of all of this are more than meets the eye! and I hope this all ends before there is no turning back for the kids. You cannot condition people to fear the world around them and then all of the sudden say it is all well and good. The damages that are being done last a lifetime!

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https://www.apa.org/monitor/julaug05/hughes

https://www.ocduk.org/ocd/history-of-ocd/howard-hughes/

Keep the Mask, Give me Air

      When I wear a face mask I get dizzy and almost pass out. I have always been taught that we need to breath in oxygen and out Carbon Dioxide then breathe in oxygen....that is what I have been told all of my life...but now they say it is ok to cover the mouth and nose blocking oxygen intake. I was not convinced this is healthy.

     I am the person who cannot pull the sheets over my head. I can't breathe! However you do get some air when you do that..I know the panic is just my claustrophobia. I can't crawl under a bed to get things and I for sure can't get into a small space. I freak out...

    All of this aside though I still felt that covering my mouth and nose  with cloth or paper would somehow stop the airflow and that might prove to be dangerous. Passing out to me is rather a dangerous thing as I might bump my head. 

     My mom almost passes out when she wears a mask too. She gets very dizzy, her nose runs and her sinuses bother her. Nothing about any of that seems healthy to me.

     I decided that I would do an experiment to see what happens when people wear masks. I wanted to find out if any oxygen enters the mask. I wanted to confirm my thoughts, that masks restrict airflow.

     I also researched some medical sites to find out more about the mask. 

     My findings are that no air gets into the mask.  People put on the mask and after that only breathe in Carbon Dioxide because there is absolutely no airflow in the mask so therefor no oxygen to breathe. To me this is not safe. Maybe for a short period of time it is ok to go without air but not all day long.

      Through research I have found that there are so many other repercussions from face coverings/ I will share those sites. 

     My conclusion is that it is not safe to wear a mask for hours at a time. Actually I don't even believe it is safe short term. 

     However this is a conclusion each person must make on their own from what they research and believe. 

     Those who want to wear a mask or feel safe in one should wear one but please do take precautions while you do. But those who believe they are unsafe should not be forced

to wear one. I wear a shield however don't really feel that is completely safe  But at least I get oxygen flow. 

     Keep the mask, I want air!! 

    Please however don't just take my word for it regarding the test I conducted. Conduct your own, do research..educate and learn....you might or might not come to the same conclusion I did but at least then you will know. Please also share what you come up with, I am interested. 

    Below is my experiment on the mask and oxygen. Also, some research I conducted about the mask.

Video:

Oxygen Does not Enter the Mask     

Stinky Side Effect of the Mask

Face Mask and Skin Irritation

Hartford Health Care The Truth About Carbon Dioxide - You will have to click on the redirect for this site.

PositivityJar

 
       The last few months since the corona government shut downs, feeling positive has been challenging. I turn on the news and there are so many bad things happening in the world. I look at social media and not much different there...

      There have been many times I have felt like the world might come crashing around me. I have felt suffocated by  everything happening in the world. There are some terms and words I never want to hear again but I hear them daily....they make me want to scream at the top of my lungs. 

     I feel stressed a lot of the time and sad even more....it was getting almost unbearable. Something had to change to remove this hopelessness I felt. 

    Then one day  I heard about a positivity  jar, a jar in which you put one positive thing that happens to you each day...

    I decided this was my way of coping and maybe briing back some of the positives in my heart so, I have created my positivity jar.

      My jar is simple, is just an old mug in my room where I place a positive event each day for work and a personal positive event into my jar. Then are the end of the week I look at my positives. 

     This jar has helped me to see that the world is not as dark and dreary as it sometimes feels, that I can find something good in each of my days....now mind you sometimes I have to dig deep for my positive.... but I find one.

    I am not using things like "I got out of bed today" just because that is a standard go to, I want to dig a bit deeper than that. 

    I plan to share my positives in this blog..It is helpful for me and might help someone else find hope during these dark times.  

    I would also love to hear others positives. So please share with me! Lets pull out of the gloom in the world and find what is bright and makes us smile even if it is something as small as "I made it through the day." 

Week 1 Positives

     July 28, 2020 Personal positive: I found a neat Mickey Mouse mug at HomeGoods.

                            Work positive:  I got some furniture for my classroom.

     July 29, 2020 Personal positive: My grandson, son and daughter in law came to stay all night with me.

                             Work positive: I was able to work with one of my team members.

     July 30, 2020  Personal positive: Got to spend the evening with my adorable grandson.

                             Work positive: District "pranked" us all and it was funny.

     July 31, 2020  Personal positive: We took Noah bowling and he got a strike. He loved it so much and didn't care that he didn't get but one strike.

                              Work positive: I didn't have one today.

     August 1, 2020 Personal positive: I got hugs from my grandson Noah in the morning.

                              No work today

     August 2, 2020 Personal positive: Talked to Noah on the phone. 

     August 3, 2020 Personal positive: Talked to Noah on the phone for his birthday. I miss him but am glad he is happy.

                               Work positive: I got my space set up.

     August 4, 2020 Work positive: I made someone smile.

                               Personal positive: It was cooler outside.

     August 5, 2020 Personal positive: I talked to Blake, my oldest son, today. 

                               Work positive: I completed some lesson plans.

     August 6, 2020 Work positive: I had a nice visit with a co-worker.

                               Personal positive: I went to the chiropractor.

     August 7, 2020 Work positive: I learned a new google slide trick.

                               Personal positive: I found some neat Disney dishes at HomeGoods.

    Nothing monumental but still positives! It was a little more than a week but that is ok....

     I hope that I hear from some of you....

Is Another Corona Government Shut Down Worth What it Will Cost?

     Some days I just feel like the world has gone mad....isolate, don't go near each other, avoid loved ones, close schools, don't shop, don't go out to eat, don't go out to play, you might get sick, if you do it is certain death, wait no not for everyone but still we should isolate ourselves....yea finally we can get back to some kind of normal but wait, maybe not....all of this combined with much more is at time way too much to handle. I feel overwhelmed and as I think of this being our world from now on, t is not a world I want to live in...I mean what kind of life is it really??  I would not take my own life but at times through all of this I have had feelings of hopelessness and not much desire to go on....except for my loved ones who need me and who I need! They keep me going, they and God are where I find my hope when hope seems so far away...

     This all gets me to wondering about those who don't have a support system, or they do have that but emotionally they are not strong enough to deal with these troubled times. There are many out there who I know feel like I do but just can't handle it. I worry so much about them...I worry if we have another shut down, the cost will be much higher than the Coronavirus deaths. Studies have shown that drug and alcohol abuse deaths are up along with suicide.

     Alcoholism and drug abuse are hard on the addict and their loved ones. Sometimes the abuser physically harms loved ones, other times just themselves. Either way it is hard to watch someone deteriorate from any type of abuse. Many people can't cope with isolation, they need their in contact group meetings, they need their friends. Some turn to substances for lack of anything else to do...regardless of why they turn to it, the substance abuse is hard on families and on society as a whole.

     Losing a loved one is hard no matter what but losing someone to suicide is an entirely different type of pain. You not only feel the pain of loss but a heart wrenching guilt. If you have ever lost someone to suicide you know exactly what I am talking about. Most of the time it isn't like you see in movies. The person doesn't mope around or threaten suicide. They are happy, well adjusted and appear like life is wonderful then one day they end their life because they couldn't cope inside,  You had no clue, no idea and you are devastated. They are good at hiding their pain.

    I have lost several loved ones to suicide and you just never get over wondering if there was something you could have done, something you could have said, some way you could have seen their pain. In time you know that there was nothing you could have done  but that small amount of guilt still lingers.

    So with this knowledge I find myself extremely concerned for many people in our society. I worry that they cannot survive another isolation, they cannot emotionally survive losing their business which will happen with another shut down. Yes the government could help but some people need to work to feel good about themselves, they don't want to be on the government dole. No matter what the reason it is still hard on them to sit back and let someone else pay their way. Children need each other, they need contact with each other because studies have shown how important it is for them to be together, to hug and to have the ability to socialize. We all need each other even if sometimes we tire of each other.

     I completely understand the Coronavirus is real and for those with compromised immune systems and the elderly it can be serious. I understand that many people are deathly afraid of it, their fear is real!   That kind of fear is harsh and hard to deal with. I feel for them. The virus is not something I personally am afraid of getting. To me the bigger picture is devastating and scares me much more than the virus ever could. The fallout of another shut down, the suicide and the abuse.....is another shutdown worth that cost? .

. https://www.cnn.com/2020/05/08/health/coronavirus-deaths-of-despair/index.html

Its a Heart Problem, Not a Race Problem: The Only Solution is a Change of Heart

 

     As the riots of 2020 are calming down I have done a lot of reflection on the real problem. I have struggled with this piece because my emotions get the best of me and in trying to get my point across I add to the problem  that exists through the poison pen.  I have gone through so many stages of anger and frustration since the murder of George Floyd, the riots and angry social media comments by others and my angry comments in emotional retaliation. I have lost a few "friends" and angered others. I have felt anger towards people I care about and some who I barely know.

     I have noticed that both sides of the issue are full of such a deep seeded disdain right now. I noticed this as I have been working through my own feelings  and I realize that I have felt hatred in my own heart. With that reflection I come to the realization that the problem we have in the end is not a race problem, it is a hostile heat problem. So what is the answer to this problem? I am not sure, I heard a saying recently that touched me deeply, be the change you want to see. Those words are so powerful to me! They woke me up because I realize now that I have not been the change I want to see. In my anger I am a part of the problem, my heart is hostile and that hostility is the problem. How I change that is up to me.

     I had a lot more to say but today I heard a video by Terrence K. Williams that moved me very deeply. His words echo what I have been feeling and trying to say. I do not feel I can add to his words as they are spot on. I ask everyone to really listen to him, listen with an open heart and open mind.

 

     I have posted things like “if you don’t like how I feel, unfriend me.” This statement  I realize, at least in my instance, is full of ugly feelings. It is a threat to others because my heart is feeling so much anger and not the change I want to see.In saying it I am saying, agree with me or else.... It was wrong of me and I hope anyone who saw my angry post accept my apology for posting it.

     I see now the only thing I can do to be the change I want to see is change how I respond and react. If I act hateful and mean then I can’t expect others to respond in any other way. If I am kind and heartfelt then hopefully that will come across and somehow help another person feel less hatred. I just know my angry and hateful comments help no one. That is not who I am and not who I want to be.

     Terrence does speak of God and Jesus, I hope that those who do not believe in either will please just listen to all else he has to say. His words and thoughts can apply to even to the person who does not believe in God. I hope his words can help the hearts filled with hatred and anger heal and that they can somehow find a way to discover answers through love and not hate. It is hard I know, but it is necessary for peaceful survival.

    

   So you see, it is not a race problem, it is a heart problem I hope we can all sit back, look at our own hearts and decide if we are a part of the change we want to see or a part of the problems that exist. I think this realization will promote unity instead of the division that is tearing us apart.

Terrence Williams video link

 

Coronavirus Shut Down Expressive Art

     Recently I decided to try my hand at expressive art. I created this piece of art to express how I feel about the Coronavirus shut down. This is what I created. I hope to come up with a way to post the art online to sell as a picture but for now wanted to share it here....

     I am also working on a poem to go with this picture.

    I have my own meaning behind this picture. But I have learned that we all interpret things differently.

     I would love to hear the different interpretations of my readers before you read mine.

     So many emotions ran through my mind as I created this. It went in several different directions and actually ended up in a somewhat different direction than I originally planned by the end of the picture. I had not planned to have the people look so much like a child painted them but well, I am not an artist so can't paint people...this is what I came up with....the guy in the corner was supposed to be a bit different but that is how he ended up...As I created this my anger built but as I finished I felt a relief.

    So before reading on to see my meaning behind the creation, respond to this blog and tell me what you see...yes to me it is deep, it might not be to someone else and it might not be quite as deep...

    Here is my meaning behind the creation: Part of these thoughts came from what I read on social media. The comments people made stating how they feel about things...

    The four holding hands represent when we were all happy and things were beautiful in the world. we got along for the most part. We could socialize and enjoy being together.

   The three in masks represent people covering up their faces after the government shut down. They are separated and unable to care about each other. They are cold to each other because they are afraid of dying if they get too close.

    The fire represents the turmoil that is going on....the division that is happening because of the disagreement on how things have gone due to the government shut down.

    Those who wear masks are afraid of certain death if they get sick, they also say people who do not wear them don't care. They believe that wearing a mask protects them from you and you from them.  They say people who do not wear masks want people to die from the virus. The mask is a symbol of caring. If you do not wear one you are a bad person.

    Those who do not wear masks see the mask as a placebo, it is also seen as a symbol of righteousness over those who do not wear it. Those who do not wear one say they care, they just do not believe a mask will do anything. They take the Coronavirus seriously and do not want people to die but yet believe that the illness is not a death sentence. They are not afraid of it. But mostly they do not believe the mask does any good. The masks also scare them because people hiding their face behind a mask also hides their identity and to some that is scary. They like to know who it is they are seeing.
   
    Then there is the one in the middle. This person sees both sides. This person wears a mask out of respect for those who are scared but really does not see it as necessary. This person is sort of afraid of the virus but not real afraid, he is more afraid of the tension between those who are fighting. This person is so conflicted and caught in the crossfire along with the beautiful flower.

    The Earth is divided and she weeps, the flowers die and the person feels alone and defeated because of all of the fighting and tension.

    The person siting down was supposed to have a bubble around his head to represent the immune system being destroyed after people are kept away from each other for months and months. This ends with people having to live in a bubble but I did not know how to paint a bubble without covering the head.
 
    That is the meaning behind it. Mostly that we are in turmoil because one side thinks a certain way and the other thinks differently but no one can seem to get along, they just get mad at each other and the person who just wants to live is caught in the middle and destroyed.
   

Peaceful Protests Overshadowed by Violent Rioters

I am not sure if there are any peaceful protesters out there but if there are, good for you for remaining peaceful. I hope your voices are heard by those who can make changes! I stand behind you. Sadly you are being over shadowed by the violent rioters.

To the violent toxic rioters ..now cities are on curfew, people have to be afraid to leave their homes so you can destroy our cities! ....like your violence will do anything except harm innocent people and take away from the real problems. Do you really think that people care what your cause is as you burn down their business or destroy their livelihood? No one cares what you have to say!

You are spiting in the face of every decent person or movement that has ever existed and you are spitting in the face of Mr. Floyd!

Before people blow up that I need to get over having a curfew, I don't care about having to stay inside. I care that we have to because there are people making it dangerous for us to go outside because they want to violently attack and riot. They are terrorist!

I also have been accused for being a privileged racist because I do not hate all white police officers for the violent acts of bad cops. How is that any better than the bad cop hating all people because they are black?

I am sickened and saddened that there is still this much hatred in the world. I am sickened by what the bad cop, who I will not give the respect of naming, did to George Floyd. I could not even watch the video because what that cop did was torture. Nothing Mr. Floyd could have done warranted that. I do not understand that kind of hatred I do not understand how anyone can hate a person for the color of his or her skin. It just is not something I can wrap my mind around. People who hate like that must have cold hearts, their hearts must be so hard and cold to hate someone for the color of their skin.

I am just as sickened though at what these rioters are doing. They are distracting from the cause, they are giving the prejudice cold-hearted people justification in their minds for their prejudice Right or wrong those who hate will be saying "see, those people are bad just like we said, look at what they are doing. they riot, they vandalize, they steal...they are the reason we do the things we do to them." Yes wrong but how hate filled people must think. The rioters are fueling the fire of the bad cops and bad people.

The peaceful protesters are the ones who will make a difference in the end but somehow, someone has to get through to the violent rioters and make them stop. Sadly though I am not sure there are any peaceful protesters left in this cause because the violence is drowning your voices.

Cause for Concern! Colorado Health Officials Falsely Reports Death as Coronavirus

     If this is happening in small town Colorado folks we need to question all of their reports. Yes people are dying from complications of the Coronavrus but not all deaths are COVID deaths.

     The city of Cortez, Colorado which is in Montezuma Country is the subject of false reporting.  I used to live there and I know the coroner personally. He is an extremely decent and honest man. He reported this death in question as alcohol related and that is what he put on the death report, but health officials reported the death as Coronavirus because the man did test positive for it. He did not die form CV however!

     I will share the news reports here because they explain the entire story in better detail..

     People, we need to wake up! This is not an isolated incident! It is happening everywhere! Our economy is being destroyed and people are being put into financial ruin. Many people seriously fear for their lives and are afraid to step outside. We are on the verge of a civil war in my opinion. This is all  because of the COVID numbers reported for the pubic to see. The thousands of deaths reported by people that some truly trust.  Granted people do die form the illness but knowing that even this one death was falsely reported as COVID makes me question everything they are saying. I do trust dishonesty and this is not honest!

     Please really listen and read the attached stories! They explain that the CDC also says they report deaths as COVID when there is a positive test and then someone dies. So that makes me wonder how many people died from things such as in a car wreck etc but because they tested positive for COVID they were added to the numbers.

     I know Mr. Deavers personally! I know he is an honest man! He also has the documentation to support his claims! This is NOT fake news! This is real folks so I really hope that you read both news reports from credible sources and take this seriously.  Lets make this viral so that at least in this one instance the county of Montezuma can get answers!

We need to be afraid of the lies!  They will destroy us faster than any virus ever could!

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Curb Corona Anger For the Sake of the Kids

      

     I have heard a few stories about young people taking their own lives during the government Corona shut down. I personally know of one. I am sure there are more cases out there than are being reported because suicide is not something that people willingly put out there. It is one of the most tragic ways to lose someone you love. Any loss is tragic but losing someone to suicide is something you can only understand if you have lost someone that way…This blog is not about suicide but about the young people during the governments corona shut down and the possibility that many more young people will decide to end their own lives.

     The tragedy of suicide got me thinking about how this is affecting the kids. The littlest kids are able to adjust to the changes but the tweens and teens must be struggling. They are fragile to begin with but now their young worlds have been rocked hard.

      I know for me as an adult I look at how things are, how cruel people are to one another on social media. The constant fighting and arguing between adults, the hate spewed on a regular basis,  The name calling and the anger people express on social media and all other areas of life.

      We are not able to truly live our lives and there is no end in sight...people on the verge of losing their homes, their business and their livelihood…all of this combined depresses me as an adult so I can only imagine how a child between 10 and 18 years old  who understands much of what is going on must feel. They see all of the nasty and hateful comments on Facebook or in the news. (Sadly many parents allow their kids on FB) They see people at each other’s throats on a regular basis. If you want the country to open up and people to return to work you are evil and told by others that you just want people to die  simply because of your desire that others are able to live. You are told how horrible you are because you care about those who own small businesses and are in danger of losing everything they have worked for. You are awful if you consider all businesses and their employees essential and their need to earn an income just as important as those the government deemed essential.

     Then there are those who are truly afraid of the virus, they are afraid if they get it they are sure to die, there is no possibility they might live. They really feel this fear and I can only imagine how scary that is for them.

    All of these feelings are passed on to the kids by adults and they are not equipped mentally or emotionally to handle them.

     Then there are the kids own fears. They don’t just carry around the fears or anger they see adults displaying, they have their own fears to deal with too:   Will I ever go to school again? Will I get to see my friends again? Will my parents go to jail if they don’t obey the stay at home laws? Will my parents go to jail if they open up their business so they can take care of us? Will we starve because my parents can’t work?  Will we become homeless because my parents aren’t allowed to work? Where will we live then? Will my parents go to jail because someone turns them in for inviting my cousins over to visit because we were lonely for each other?  Will I ever see gram and gramps again? Will they die from old age before I see them again? Will someone shoot us if we go to the park to play all or if we decide to have gram and gramps over? Will my family get sick and die or will I get sick and die? Will we ever get to leave our homes again? What is the world going to look like from now on? Will we be free or will we live like prisoners in our own homes forever?  Will this ever end? These may not be big fears to some but to a young person it has to be overwhelming. Then add the adult fears to this….well, I just feel for the youth.

    It is gloomy out there. Some say it will be months before the shut downs end, to a young person, that is a lifetime, it is their youth!   If you don’t think they see or know what is going on, think again! They are more perceptive than people give them credit for. They are worried, scared and uncertain and the adults are the ones responsible for their fears!

   

    So before we lose more of our young people to suicide we need to find ways to give them hope because if we as adults feel such anger and fear or see no hope how can we expect the kids to be ok? I know what I believe the solution is however am sure many will disagree because it is not status quo and really to help the kids it doesn’t matter.

     Mostly though I know that we have to all learn to respect one another, not always agree but respect each other. I have been guilty of thinking nasty thoughts. I even express them to those closest to me but I will not fight with anyone in a public forum about the government shut down and I for certain will not discuss it with kids. They do not need that. They need reassurance that their world is not crumbling down around them even if many adults might feel it is…. Stop public fighting, regardless of whether or not you agree many adults need to stop being so hateful and cruel to each other. The Corona anger needs to halt and be curbed for the sake of the kids!

   I would love constructive comments to this blog...what do you think the solution is for our kids?  Are you seeing problems with your own kids or kids you know? Any other ideas?  Please comment on the blog so I can see what you have to say.



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Corona Virus or Fever Bug?

     Back on Feb 3, 2020 and on Feb 5, 2020 I had to go to the nurse at work for Tylenol. I had an extremely bad headache. I have not had one that bad in years. My head hurt all week but I just assumed it was stress. 

     Then on Thursday Feb 6, 2020 I woke up feeling very tired, like I had a bladder infection. My back hurt bad and I just did not feel well. So I took off work, guzzled water all day and rested. I did not have a fever.

      I woke up Friday Feb 7, 2020 feeling better, still had that headache but still no fever so I went to work. I only had one sick day left so just could not miss work. Of course if I thought I was contagious I would have stayed home but at this point I had no fever and thought it was my kidneys. I worked all day but was very tired and had to take Tylenol again for that headache.  When I got home from work my back was hurting again.

     I woke up Saturday Feb 8. 2020 with severe back and side pain I just knew my kidneys or maybe even my gal bladder were infected or something was going on related to one or the other. That is how bad my back and side hurt.  I was careful to eat low fat food and drink lots of water. I took Tylenol for the pain along with the continuing headache. In the past when my kidneys were infected I had that severe headache. What was different is that now I had a dry cough too It was not extreme but bad enough.

     When I woke up Sunday Feb 9. 2020 I had a temperature of 99.9. I decided it was time to go to ER and get it checked out. Last time I let my kidneys go my fever spiked at 105. I did not want that to happen again.  I headed to the ER around 6:00 PM. It was super crowded because this was flu season.... They had some confusion with my urine but in the end finally at 12:30 AM the next day after a lot of blood work and a CT scan they told me they did not find an infection, that my gal bladder and kidneys were fine. They said it must just be severe muscle strain and a virus or some sort was the reason for the temperature and cough.  They gave me a prescription for pain medicine and sent me home.

    While waiting at the 24 hour pharmacy to pick up my medicine I could feel my inner body temperature rising. I started to freeze and well, you just know when your temperature is rising.  

    When I got home around 2 AM after picking up my meds on Feb 10, 2020 I took my temperature and it was 101.9 needless to say I messaged work and took the next day off. I still wasn't sure about my kidneys because I wasn't real confident the hospital had been careful with my urine samples...but kidneys don't cause a cough. I just chalked that up to well, I had no clue what that was all about. 

     I was super tired on Monday, had a fever still of 101.9 and just slept all day when I could rest. 

     I woke up on Tuesday Feb 11, 2020 with the same 101.9 temperature. I still had the pain along with the body aches which started Sunday when the fever started. I pretty much slept all day on Tuesday too when I could.

    On Wed I woke up with a 102.9 temp so decided it was time to see my doctor. I made an appointment for Thursday. I rested all day Wednesday...when I could rest. The pain medicine did help.

    On Thursday I went to my appointment. My doctor said that I had a kidney infection from looking at my urine but needed to send it off to confirm. She prescribed an antibiotic and sent me on my way...

     Friday my temperature was 102.9. I still was very tired, hurt all over and was miserable. The cough was better though if I remember right. It was more annoying than anything.

     I had the 102.9 temp until Sunday when my fever finally broke. So I went to work on Monday...I was still very tired but had gone 24 hours fever free. Plus it was a kidney infection right...

     Monday afternoon my doctors office called and told me to stop the antibiotic because it was not a kidney infection.....I asked what it was and they said must have just been a virus of some sort. 


    When I returned to work on Monday I learned that many others had missed school, staff and kids alike. Then I went to my other school on Wednesday and many people were gone there. My kids told me they had experienced the same thing I had. No one really knew what it was, some had tested positive for the flu but others just had the strange fever bug. Some teachers had more than half of their student body gone. Most were gone about a week. It ran through like wild fire. Right before spring break it seemed to have calmed down a bit. 

     Looking back on the experience after learning about the Coronavirus symptoms I wonder now if we had it or just a fever bug. I hope they find an inexpensive way to find out.  If it was the Coronavirus it was not fun but I never felt at deaths door....and all of us survived! 

Side Story-Water Damage During Sickness ---Not Fun

     Not only was I sick but in the middle of it all on Tuesday morning at 1 AM my mom who is staying with me woke up and told me the roof was leaking in the extra bedroom. This was interesting as I live on the first floor of an apartment building. with another apartment above me. It had been raining though but still that was odd. But the water was pouring all along the ceiling. I called maintenance and they came to check it out an hour later. In the meantime we had to move the books and furniture from the area that was leaking All while I had this 101.9 temp and felt like warmed over death...

      Maintenance was at my apartment until 3 AM then back around 8 AM the next day to work on things. My bedroom also had to be torn apart because it leaked there too. The rain drain pipe had broken and leaked all over. So along with being sick I slept on the sofa for a few nights as it took 3 days for them to fix the leak and repair the water damage. It was an interesting addition to being ill.

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United States Needs Ration Cards During Coronavirus Government Shut Down

     Due to the toilet paper shortage  in the United States I think the United States needs to start sending our ration cards. Stores have tried to solve the shortage problem by limiting items people can buy per visit but it is not working. There is still a shortage of items and this should not be happening! There must be those who send different family members in each day to purchase items or others who go in several different times each day themselves to purchase the same item. Sadly these people do not care that others are doing without while they have way more than they need.

    Yes larger families need more of each item, they are not the ones causing the shortages. Those who are buying way more than they need are causing the problem. If everyone had purchased like they always did we would not be in this shape. Something has to change! The government needs to take control. They control everything else right now so why not this?

   They rationed during WWII so why not now. It would work like this: the government sends out ration cards for each of the high need items based on the number of people in a household. So if you have a family of 2 you get enough for your family of 2. If you have a family of 8 you get enough vouchers for your family of 8.  People go to the store, use their voucher and then have to wait until the next voucher book issued

     Just a thought....one I think that would work....Maybe by creating the ration cards some of us can find items we need when we go to the store.

Coping With The Coronavirus Government Shut Down by Controlling Fear

I have been struggling with depression over the Coronavirus government shut down, feeling hopeless and like life will never be the same again. Like this is a forever shut down, feeling like the quality of life has taken a complete dive and wondering what the point is of life anymore. I have simply been trying to find a way to cope, a way to no longer feel this severe dread every morning when I get out of bed, to stop waking up worrying about the demise of the people who have lost work and businesses that have shut down, to stop feeling sad because all of the places I love are closed and to stop feeling this complete feeling of destitute like nothing will ever be good or normal again.

I have really been tying to find a way to cope with the depression and feeling of hopelessness which is extremely unhealthy...I have sat and wondered how I can end these feelings, how I can regain hope. How to see the sunshine through the storm.

There is nothing I can do to change what the government has done so I have to accept it and find a way to stay mentally healthy....I also realize that I need to empathize with those who fear the virus because they feel a real fear. I personally do not fear the virus as much as I fear the fallout from the shut down. I fear for the loss of livelihood for many, a livelihood that for some will never return.

I finally found something that helped me realize how important it is that regardless of what I fear it is important for me to stop letting that fear grip me. I read an article that made me realize how detrimental my fear is because those who fear the disease fear it as much as I fear the economy crashing and the fallout from the shut down....we all need to stop letting the fear guide us no matter what it is we fear. This article was helpful in putting things into perspective and to remind me that regardless of why we are in this, we are all in it and have to find ways to cope or our mental health will be our demise.

I plan to follow what this article says to do...work towards ending my fear so I can see positives in life once again.

Here is the great article!

https://medium.com/the-mission/why-coronavirus-should-be-the-least-of-your-worries-d6ed6abe75bc

Perception is Everything

     Everything we see or do is subject to different perceptions. A lot is based on our background. What one person reads into something might not be what I read into it. It is important to always remember that perception is important and give people the benefit of the doubt and find out what they perceived.

     I recently saw a meme on Facebook that I shared however it offended someone. I did not find it at all offensive because I perceived it differently. However a wonderful friend of mine saw the same meme on another persons wall and had a different perception than I did. He explained it respectfully and thoughtfully making me see it in a different light. 

     The meme read: When this is over, let's remember that it wasn't the CEO's or the billionaires who saved us. It was the janitors, nurses, grocery and food workers.

     When I first saw this meme all I saw was finally someone was showing appreciation to those who are always taken for granted or looked down on. So many people look down on janitors, servers (unless in a high scale restaurant), food service workers and other people in service type professions.  I mean who goes to Disneyland and thanks the custodians for the wonderful work they do? Well except for me. I also thank those who keep the restrooms clean for all of us. When I do they are so appreciative and tell me that no one ever thanks them and they appreciate it so much. So I saw this meme in that same manner. As a way to say I appreciate them and all they do!! 

    My wonderful  friend saw it in a different way and posted his thoughts on his own wall. He said that without the CEO's and billionaires we wouldn't have some of the other professions. Or something like that. Mostly he said we need to appreciate both. 

     I do agree that we need to appreciate both but I still feel like many people look at the billionaires and CEO's as heroes or idols of sorts. I have heard many people tell their kids to do well in school so they can have a good profession. That is well and good and we should all strive for the best, strive to be successful but that might look different to some people. To some people being a janitor is successful and something they want to do. There is nothing wrong with that! 

     I have heard parents say to their kids "You don't want to grow up and flip burgers do you?" in a derogatory tone. People should tell their kids they will be proud of them no matter what they do as long as their are successful and have happy lives. Many people look down on the service profession so I perceived the meme as an appreciation to them, I did not see it as a negative to the billionaires and CEO's. They get plenty of glory and people look up to them so I did not even consider them when I read the post. 

    But after reading my friends post I saw that the meme might look different to one person than it did to me. It was another instance that showed me how different we all perceive things and how important is to respect that fact. The meme to me now is just divisive and I would not share it again because I perceive it in a different light. All roles are important! 

The Tidy Bowl Man and The Curse of the Toilet Paper Shortage

     Many years ago I worked for a writing site, Bubblews. They were a great site but then reverted from serious and good pieces to literal fluff. So, to follow their rules I started writing fluff. I took it to the limit and wrote about the Ty-D-Bol Man…I am not sure who remembers the commercials from the 70’s about the little man who lived in the toilet and told people about the new toilet cleaning products.

    My fellow writers got a kick out of my fluff articles especially the Ty-D-Bol Man articles. They were short and well, very much full of fluff. I even added them to a book I put together full of compilations from my Bubblews days, both serious and fluff.

     Now in the year 2020 we are once again a world obsessed with toilet matters…fluff if you will… The other day I was on the search for the hot commodity….TOILET PAPER…yes TP has become a hot item. For some reason because of a pandemic virus that has nothing to do with potty matters people decided to hoard TP making it next to impossible for those who need it to purchase.

    As I was going from one store to another looking for TP I was thinking of alternatives to the hot product. I decided that a water bottle (you know the kind you can squeeze and a stream of water comes out) would be a great tool to clean my underside when I run out of TP. Then my thoughts turned to my little friend The Ty-D-Bol Man..as I sat at the light I laughed out loud very hard. I thought of a story about this little man and his woes if we all used the squirt bottle to clean our nether regions…

    These are difficult times for all of us so I thought a bit of fluff might be a way to lighten the load…

     I would like to share with you my original fluff pieces and then my new ones. I hope you enjoy…

The Ty-D-Bol Man and 2020’s Great Toilet Paper Crisis

Written March 20, 2020

     Many years ago I wrote about marrying the Ty-D-Bol Man. You know, that cute little man who lives in the toilets telling us all about new cleaning products. He still lives in the toilet bowl you know, we are just to busy to see him. I know he is there because well, for no other reason than I have faith in him…

     Right now in the year 2020  many people are hurting for TP. So I thought I would start using a squirt bottle to clean my nether region.. I wonder what my little toilet friend is going to do if many of us can’t find paper and we start using squirt bottles?

    I can see the Ty-D-Bol man now, just floating around in his little boat minding his own business whistling a happy song when all of the sudden WHOOSH this rush of water floods his boat which capsizes and SPLASH into the water he goes. Poor little man is now soaked. He scrambles around trying to get back to his tiny boat with no luck at all. The water keeps coming at him…he tries to yell for help but his cries are muffled by the water as it begins to swirl and down the drain he goes.

    He finally swims his way to his tiny boat, dries off and finds himself floating around again only to find that the next house has the same water bottle. He is just floating around again minding his own business, whistling his happy tune when swoosh the water fills his boat. This time he is not knocked out of the boat right away…it fills with water and he slowly sinks. Poor little man then is hit on the head with a rush of water, not like a gentle rain, more like a strong force of nature. He then goes through the swooshing and swirling trying to find is way back to his boat but down the drain he goes.

    Time and time again the poor guy finds his way to his boat and time and time again he is either washed into the water or his boat is sunk by the  torrential floods from above. He is becoming very stressed and tired of fighting for his life every time he gets back in his boat.

    One day the Ty-D-Bol Man finds his way back to his boat after being knocked off. He catches his breath and yells “Hey you up there, do you know I am here?” The person turns around and looks into his home, she is an older lady with gray hair. “Well  hello down there, who are you?” she asks.

Ty-D-Bol Man: “I am the Ty-D-Bol Man. I live here in your bowl, I think the world has forgotten all about me over the years.”

Barbara: “Wow I did not know you still lived in our toilet bowls. I have not heard of you in years. My name is Barbara.”

Ty-D-Bol Man: frustrated “Yes I do still live here and you people have been trying to drown me recently. You used to send down fluffy little pillows but now you send this huge flood of water, knocking me off my boat making me get wet and almost drown. I am very tired of it!  Plus it is rather gross in this water you know.”

Barbara: “I am sorry, we are in a TP crisis so had to figure something out.”

Ty-D-Bol Man: “Well can you figure out another way please? I am fighting for my life down here.”

Barbara: “Sorry sir, but this is the year of the great TP Crisis and well you know it is 2020.”

The End.....until next time....

Where’s the Ty-D-Bol Man When you Need Him?

Written October 27, 2014

    After all of the buzz about toilets and bodily functions I got to thinking about the  Ty-D-Bol Man. Hew as the little man who lived in your toilet many years ago. He would tell people about the new Ty-D-Bowl products. He wore a sailor suit and floated around in a little boat.

     I wonder how he ate and such but maybe the things people left in the toilet provided him food. That is kind of gross.

     I sure could have used him the other day when I had to clean a really filthy toiled at a house I take care of. If he had been there I would not have had to clean it.

What if I Married the Ty-D-Bol Man

Written October 27, 2014

      I wonder what would happen if the Ty-D-Bol man got married? I wonder if he is still living in the toilets? He was when I was a kid but hasn’t been around in years. I wonder what would happen if I married the Ty-D-Bol man?

     I also wonder what we would do when not talking to the women in the bathroom. I can imagine that after our marriage I would get into his little boat with him and we’d sail of into the sunset. Well, not the sunset since we are in a toilet bowl but off into the land of plumbing.

     After I married him I’d find out how he eats and what he eats. That is a scary thought, and then what about Ty-D-Bol kids? I don’t think I want to marry the Ty-D-Bol Man.

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