Living in Fear and Fearing to Live is Not the Answer

      People have been told to mask up, to avoid gatherings, to distance and to pretty much stay home since March 2020. I believe that it is harmful to just say home all of the time and destroy your immune system by being well, germophobic. 

    I do not want to go into why I believe all of this has been pointless and harmful. I just want to state that I have a family member who has feared the virus from day one. He stayed home, had people who happened to visit his home get temperature checks before entering. He took all precautions he was told to take to avoid getting sick.

    He has not gone into the store since told to isolate. He has his food either delivered or picks it up outside the stores. 

    He faithfully wears his mask wherever he happens to go which is pretty much just outside or to pick up food, curbside.

    He sanitizes his hands regularly to the point of obsession.

     He sanitizes his home to the point of obsession. 

    He is fearful of Covid...to the point of obsession. 

    He is the perfect example of what the 2020 health gurus want people to be, masked, isolated, and pretty much germophobic. 

    Oh and he got his flu shot too...

    Well guess what! He got the flu, a bad case of the flu. Granted it was not Covid but the flu virus spreads the same way as Covid,  through droplets. So shouldn't the mask have protected him? It might have if masks worked.

    The flu is just as deadly to the elderly as Covid.

    What this tells me, what I already knew, is that all of the measures the government is having people take are pointless. If you are going to get sick, you are going to get sick! 

    So they need to unmask us, they need to stop spreading such fear and let people live. This man has not lived for months due to fear and yet got sick anyhow. 

     Yes I am angry, I am angry that the politicians and mainstream media are using fear tactics resulting in peoples submission to their demands. Many people are living in fear, so scared of illness that they are not living. 

    Don't get me wrong, I do not fault those who are scared and wear masks, and follow what  the politicians are telling them to do. I am just saying that at the end of the day if you are going to get sick, you are going to get sick and none of it really makes much difference. If it makes people feel better by all means, do it however there are actual cases that show it is redundant.

    I hope that people wake up soon and realize that none of this is working! People still get sick!  Almost 8 months later, people still get Covid and now we have the flu to contend with.....Just wash your hands, eat well, stay home of you are sick and stay away from sick people. At the end of the day though even that might not be enough. You might get sick. But living in fear or rather fearing to live is not the answer. 

#unmask

#end lockdowns

#Letuslive

LUSH Discriminates, Bosa Irritates - Two Places I Will Not Give My Business Anymore

      I love the products they sell at LUSH and used to go there before the politicians locked down the country and close small businesses. I was excited when they opened again. Couldn't wait to purchase the products I love.  I love Bosa donuts, they are one of my guilty pleasures....I refer both of these places to my friends and family every chance I get. That ended yesterday. I will no longer shop at LUSH or Bosa Donuts. 

     I am first of all a believer of the science that says masks are simply just a placebo and I also believe the science that says it is harmful to wear one for hours and that they destroy our immune systems. But that is not the issue here....my issue is related to masks though.

     When the mandate in my area was ordered I knew that I had to wear one to work, so I tried to wear one in the store, I almost passed out after 20 minutes of masking. I had to hold on to the cart taking the thing off so I could breathe. I discussed this with my doctor and he said that I can wear a shield. He wrote the medical paper stating that I can wear a shield instead of a mask. He also told me that I did not have to tell anyone what my medical issue is, and I don't have to show my medical proof. That is a legal violation of my rights. My work did not ask....I actually had no issues until November 7, 2020. 

     I hate wearing the shield, it is still difficult and after wearing it all day I find my sinuses hurt but, I can at least do it. I wear it into businesses not because I want to or agree with masking but so that they can remain open. No one has denied me the right to shop because of my shield until yesterday. 

    The first place I went to was an antique store. I do not remember the name of the store so did not mention them but will not shop with them again. After I had been in the store about 20 minutes an employee came up to me holding a mask and told me I needed to wear one inside the store. I told her I had a medical reason I could not wear one. She said that did not matter, I had to wear one to shop there. I said "Even with a medical reason?"  She told me yes. So I put on her little mask because I had a couple of things I wanted to purchase and they were from vendors not the store. I held the mask away from my face so I could breathe. I paid, and left never to return to that store.

    The second place was LUSH in the mall at Chandler Fashion in Chandler, Arizona. I waited outside their door to go inside. The employee came up and told me to enter their store I needed to put on a mask. She said they had some I could buy. I told her I had a medial reason I had on a shield and can't wear a mask. She said it was company policy. I mentioned it was a medical reason again but she said I could not shop there. So I was discriminated against because I have a medical reason to cover my face with a shield instead of cloth.  This is a company choice because no other store or business has required this. Just the two places I mentioned.  I love LUSH products but will not purchase them. I will not go online to purchase them. They lost a customer in me because they discriminate against people. 

     Now on to Bosa, they did not discriminate but they ticked me off. I will no longer purchase from them. I have been there several times to purchase donuts either for myself or other people. They are my go to donut shop. There was never a problem until last night.  I was in my car at the drive up window. They said I needed to put a mask on inside my car to buy donuts from them. Seriously! I was lower than her, she had a plastic flapping shield and I was far away. I did not plan to spit on her and I was in my car! There is no way I will wear a mask or my shield in my car. So that said, I will no longer go to Bosa.

     I respect the right of people to wear a mask if they are scared, or believe they help.  I wear my annoying shield places to respect that right...I hate it and believe it is pointless but I know other people believe the scientists who say it is the thing to do. I respect their right...but they need to respect mine too...regardless I wear my shield and have a medical reason for that so no business has the right to refuse service....well I guess they do but I have the right to report them to the ADA if I want to and to never shop there again....oh and to write this blog... I will also never wear a mask in my own car.....I have that right still and again also have the right to no longer do business with places that refuse to serve me if I do not mask in my car....

   So farewell LUSH for discrimination and Bosa for just ticking me off.

   PS the photo in this blog is not the shield I wear. It was my Halloween costume shield.

#unmask#discrimination 

Creating a World Where Monk is Not the Only Defective Person: Corona Cleaning and Covering Conditioning Citizens and Children to be Germaphobes

     

     Today as I stopped at Kohl's to return some items I got to thinking about how our society has become one where Monk would not stand out. For those who do not know who Monk is, he is the germaphobe defective detective played by Tony Shaloub. He is a fictional character but sadly there are many out there just like him or worse and society is becoming him and also putting this on the children creating more people like Monk.

     The man who waited on me in Kohl's was standing behind a splash guard. He also had on gloves, not just your surgical gloves but these thick dish washing gloves. He had on his mask of course because government mandates those...what really struck me was when I went to hand him my items he took out a sack, opened it for me to place my items in. Then he used a tool to close the bags. All of this while he had gloves on. I thought to myself how ridiculous it was, but more how sad our this is the norm and how ridiculous society has become.

     Who would have ever imagined the world would become a world where Monk is not the defective detective anymore. If he was real he would not even stand out as a germaphobic defective detective since the world is him..... "Wipe wipe" turned into squirt squirt.. and clean clean.. When people touch things they don't reach for a wipe like Monk, but they do reach for a squirt. It is all so sad. 

     Monk was not happy being a germaphobe, he hated it. He had a very sad life, felt tortured by his phobias which were not just of germs. He was conditioned since childhood. He was even afraid to hug. 

     I wonder how many have ever heard of  Howard Hughes?  He was real and he had a very sad life, he was successful but his germaphobia ended up destroying him. He would also fit into today's society of people who are so deathly afraid of germs. Howard Hughes was so afraid of germs that at the end of his life he laid naked in a hotel bed, was so afraid of germs that he burned his clothes if anyone around him became ill.

Research showed that Howard's germaphobia was linked to his childhood. His mother was terrified that he would get Polio (he was a child during the outbreak) she worried about his exposure to germs and protected him from them as much as possible. She was cautious of what he ate, checked him daily for diseases and made him sleep in her bedroom most nights. Isn't this what society is doing to the young people?  

     What scares me most of all is what all of this conditioning is doing to the children. Society is training them to be germaphobic and I bet anyone who suffers from it would say it is not a fun way to live. I watch them as they are afraid of sharing items, they are afraid of being unmasked, they are afraid to touch each other and sanitize any time they touch something new. They are scared to death of germs. They watch the adults around them live in fear of germs. This has to have an impact on them. I wonder what kind of young adults will come out of this.. hmm check out Howard Hughes.. watch Monk, even though it is fiction there are people that are so afraid of germs they fail to live. It is debilitating for them. They do not like it. Yet here in 2020 society is teaching its youth how to be germaphobic. 

     I also wonder maybe if this is a part of some kind of bigger plan. Create a society of people afraid of germs, people who eventually become afraid to go outside, who are afraid of everything. It might sound far out but who would have ever in a million years  thought we would be where we are now. So many are scared of stores, people, germs of any kind. They do cower in fear and their fear is real. But is that fear more harmful than what they actually fear?  This fear  is going to harm the children and they deserve better from the adults in charge of their world. 

  I fear that the repercussions of all of this are more than meets the eye! and I hope this all ends before there is no turning back for the kids. You cannot condition people to fear the world around them and then all of the sudden say it is all well and good. The damages that are being done last a lifetime!

+germaphobe

+unmask

+harmful for kids

https://www.apa.org/monitor/julaug05/hughes

https://www.ocduk.org/ocd/history-of-ocd/howard-hughes/

Keep the Mask, Give me Air

      When I wear a face mask I get dizzy and almost pass out. I have always been taught that we need to breath in oxygen and out Carbon Dioxide then breathe in oxygen....that is what I have been told all of my life...but now they say it is ok to cover the mouth and nose blocking oxygen intake. I was not convinced this is healthy.

     I am the person who cannot pull the sheets over my head. I can't breathe! However you do get some air when you do that..I know the panic is just my claustrophobia. I can't crawl under a bed to get things and I for sure can't get into a small space. I freak out...

    All of this aside though I still felt that covering my mouth and nose  with cloth or paper would somehow stop the airflow and that might prove to be dangerous. Passing out to me is rather a dangerous thing as I might bump my head. 

     My mom almost passes out when she wears a mask too. She gets very dizzy, her nose runs and her sinuses bother her. Nothing about any of that seems healthy to me.

     I decided that I would do an experiment to see what happens when people wear masks. I wanted to find out if any oxygen enters the mask. I wanted to confirm my thoughts, that masks restrict airflow.

     I also researched some medical sites to find out more about the mask. 

     My findings are that no air gets into the mask.  People put on the mask and after that only breathe in Carbon Dioxide because there is absolutely no airflow in the mask so therefor no oxygen to breathe. To me this is not safe. Maybe for a short period of time it is ok to go without air but not all day long.

      Through research I have found that there are so many other repercussions from face coverings/ I will share those sites. 

     My conclusion is that it is not safe to wear a mask for hours at a time. Actually I don't even believe it is safe short term. 

     However this is a conclusion each person must make on their own from what they research and believe. 

     Those who want to wear a mask or feel safe in one should wear one but please do take precautions while you do. But those who believe they are unsafe should not be forced

to wear one. I wear a shield however don't really feel that is completely safe  But at least I get oxygen flow. 

     Keep the mask, I want air!! 

    Please however don't just take my word for it regarding the test I conducted. Conduct your own, do research..educate and learn....you might or might not come to the same conclusion I did but at least then you will know. Please also share what you come up with, I am interested. 

    Below is my experiment on the mask and oxygen. Also, some research I conducted about the mask.

Video:

Oxygen Does not Enter the Mask     

Stinky Side Effect of the Mask

Face Mask and Skin Irritation

Hartford Health Care The Truth About Carbon Dioxide - You will have to click on the redirect for this site.

PositivityJar

 
       The last few months since the corona government shut downs, feeling positive has been challenging. I turn on the news and there are so many bad things happening in the world. I look at social media and not much different there...

      There have been many times I have felt like the world might come crashing around me. I have felt suffocated by  everything happening in the world. There are some terms and words I never want to hear again but I hear them daily....they make me want to scream at the top of my lungs. 

     I feel stressed a lot of the time and sad even more....it was getting almost unbearable. Something had to change to remove this hopelessness I felt. 

    Then one day  I heard about a positivity  jar, a jar in which you put one positive thing that happens to you each day...

    I decided this was my way of coping and maybe briing back some of the positives in my heart so, I have created my positivity jar.

      My jar is simple, is just an old mug in my room where I place a positive event each day for work and a personal positive event into my jar. Then are the end of the week I look at my positives. 

     This jar has helped me to see that the world is not as dark and dreary as it sometimes feels, that I can find something good in each of my days....now mind you sometimes I have to dig deep for my positive.... but I find one.

    I am not using things like "I got out of bed today" just because that is a standard go to, I want to dig a bit deeper than that. 

    I plan to share my positives in this blog..It is helpful for me and might help someone else find hope during these dark times.  

    I would also love to hear others positives. So please share with me! Lets pull out of the gloom in the world and find what is bright and makes us smile even if it is something as small as "I made it through the day." 

Week 1 Positives

     July 28, 2020 Personal positive: I found a neat Mickey Mouse mug at HomeGoods.

                            Work positive:  I got some furniture for my classroom.

     July 29, 2020 Personal positive: My grandson, son and daughter in law came to stay all night with me.

                             Work positive: I was able to work with one of my team members.

     July 30, 2020  Personal positive: Got to spend the evening with my adorable grandson.

                             Work positive: District "pranked" us all and it was funny.

     July 31, 2020  Personal positive: We took Noah bowling and he got a strike. He loved it so much and didn't care that he didn't get but one strike.

                              Work positive: I didn't have one today.

     August 1, 2020 Personal positive: I got hugs from my grandson Noah in the morning.

                              No work today

     August 2, 2020 Personal positive: Talked to Noah on the phone. 

     August 3, 2020 Personal positive: Talked to Noah on the phone for his birthday. I miss him but am glad he is happy.

                               Work positive: I got my space set up.

     August 4, 2020 Work positive: I made someone smile.

                               Personal positive: It was cooler outside.

     August 5, 2020 Personal positive: I talked to Blake, my oldest son, today. 

                               Work positive: I completed some lesson plans.

     August 6, 2020 Work positive: I had a nice visit with a co-worker.

                               Personal positive: I went to the chiropractor.

     August 7, 2020 Work positive: I learned a new google slide trick.

                               Personal positive: I found some neat Disney dishes at HomeGoods.

    Nothing monumental but still positives! It was a little more than a week but that is ok....

     I hope that I hear from some of you....

Is Another Corona Government Shut Down Worth What it Will Cost?

     Some days I just feel like the world has gone mad....isolate, don't go near each other, avoid loved ones, close schools, don't shop, don't go out to eat, don't go out to play, you might get sick, if you do it is certain death, wait no not for everyone but still we should isolate ourselves....yea finally we can get back to some kind of normal but wait, maybe not....all of this combined with much more is at time way too much to handle. I feel overwhelmed and as I think of this being our world from now on, t is not a world I want to live in...I mean what kind of life is it really??  I would not take my own life but at times through all of this I have had feelings of hopelessness and not much desire to go on....except for my loved ones who need me and who I need! They keep me going, they and God are where I find my hope when hope seems so far away...

     This all gets me to wondering about those who don't have a support system, or they do have that but emotionally they are not strong enough to deal with these troubled times. There are many out there who I know feel like I do but just can't handle it. I worry so much about them...I worry if we have another shut down, the cost will be much higher than the Coronavirus deaths. Studies have shown that drug and alcohol abuse deaths are up along with suicide.

     Alcoholism and drug abuse are hard on the addict and their loved ones. Sometimes the abuser physically harms loved ones, other times just themselves. Either way it is hard to watch someone deteriorate from any type of abuse. Many people can't cope with isolation, they need their in contact group meetings, they need their friends. Some turn to substances for lack of anything else to do...regardless of why they turn to it, the substance abuse is hard on families and on society as a whole.

     Losing a loved one is hard no matter what but losing someone to suicide is an entirely different type of pain. You not only feel the pain of loss but a heart wrenching guilt. If you have ever lost someone to suicide you know exactly what I am talking about. Most of the time it isn't like you see in movies. The person doesn't mope around or threaten suicide. They are happy, well adjusted and appear like life is wonderful then one day they end their life because they couldn't cope inside,  You had no clue, no idea and you are devastated. They are good at hiding their pain.

    I have lost several loved ones to suicide and you just never get over wondering if there was something you could have done, something you could have said, some way you could have seen their pain. In time you know that there was nothing you could have done  but that small amount of guilt still lingers.

    So with this knowledge I find myself extremely concerned for many people in our society. I worry that they cannot survive another isolation, they cannot emotionally survive losing their business which will happen with another shut down. Yes the government could help but some people need to work to feel good about themselves, they don't want to be on the government dole. No matter what the reason it is still hard on them to sit back and let someone else pay their way. Children need each other, they need contact with each other because studies have shown how important it is for them to be together, to hug and to have the ability to socialize. We all need each other even if sometimes we tire of each other.

     I completely understand the Coronavirus is real and for those with compromised immune systems and the elderly it can be serious. I understand that many people are deathly afraid of it, their fear is real!   That kind of fear is harsh and hard to deal with. I feel for them. The virus is not something I personally am afraid of getting. To me the bigger picture is devastating and scares me much more than the virus ever could. The fallout of another shut down, the suicide and the abuse.....is another shutdown worth that cost? .

. https://www.cnn.com/2020/05/08/health/coronavirus-deaths-of-despair/index.html

Its a Heart Problem, Not a Race Problem: The Only Solution is a Change of Heart

 

     As the riots of 2020 are calming down I have done a lot of reflection on the real problem. I have struggled with this piece because my emotions get the best of me and in trying to get my point across I add to the problem  that exists through the poison pen.  I have gone through so many stages of anger and frustration since the murder of George Floyd, the riots and angry social media comments by others and my angry comments in emotional retaliation. I have lost a few "friends" and angered others. I have felt anger towards people I care about and some who I barely know.

     I have noticed that both sides of the issue are full of such a deep seeded disdain right now. I noticed this as I have been working through my own feelings  and I realize that I have felt hatred in my own heart. With that reflection I come to the realization that the problem we have in the end is not a race problem, it is a hostile heat problem. So what is the answer to this problem? I am not sure, I heard a saying recently that touched me deeply, be the change you want to see. Those words are so powerful to me! They woke me up because I realize now that I have not been the change I want to see. In my anger I am a part of the problem, my heart is hostile and that hostility is the problem. How I change that is up to me.

     I had a lot more to say but today I heard a video by Terrence K. Williams that moved me very deeply. His words echo what I have been feeling and trying to say. I do not feel I can add to his words as they are spot on. I ask everyone to really listen to him, listen with an open heart and open mind.

 

     I have posted things like “if you don’t like how I feel, unfriend me.” This statement  I realize, at least in my instance, is full of ugly feelings. It is a threat to others because my heart is feeling so much anger and not the change I want to see.In saying it I am saying, agree with me or else.... It was wrong of me and I hope anyone who saw my angry post accept my apology for posting it.

     I see now the only thing I can do to be the change I want to see is change how I respond and react. If I act hateful and mean then I can’t expect others to respond in any other way. If I am kind and heartfelt then hopefully that will come across and somehow help another person feel less hatred. I just know my angry and hateful comments help no one. That is not who I am and not who I want to be.

     Terrence does speak of God and Jesus, I hope that those who do not believe in either will please just listen to all else he has to say. His words and thoughts can apply to even to the person who does not believe in God. I hope his words can help the hearts filled with hatred and anger heal and that they can somehow find a way to discover answers through love and not hate. It is hard I know, but it is necessary for peaceful survival.

    

   So you see, it is not a race problem, it is a heart problem I hope we can all sit back, look at our own hearts and decide if we are a part of the change we want to see or a part of the problems that exist. I think this realization will promote unity instead of the division that is tearing us apart.

Terrence Williams video link